update dec 2020

Haven't blogged in a while. 

Here is a 4chan format speed run of 2020 from July - December. 

> resigns lease with 2 new roommates

> roommates move in, everyone is having a great time - no issues interpersonally with anyone. 

> black mold is discovered in the front half of the house including both of the new roommates bedrooms and shared bathroom. 

> we tell our landlord immediately, he comes over the next day and feverishly bleaches all of the walls, then immediately emails us saying that a mold test came back negative / it was dust and for us to clean the house better. 

> we call our own mold specialist to get a quote and buy a cheap home depot mold test kit, take a sample, and mail it to the lab. test results are expected to come in 5 days minimum. interesting that our landlords alleged test came back negative on the same day. 

> our results obviously come back positive because... it was clearly black mold. period.. 

> landlords & i are in a heated email back and forth for months about them getting the mold treated, but they were not agreeing to do anything about it because I was only able to pay partial rent after losing my job, which they said was fine. 

> landlords start demanding money & threatening to evict me if I didn't pay back rent. 

> roommates move out because it was taking too long for the landlords to do anything and all of their belongings were getting mold damage & like.. health risk vibes <3 totally understandable and I'm glad they were able to move out when they did. 

> literally had to crowdfund for back rent. & now my rent was not split 3 ways and i felt bad asking the other roommates to continue paying because they didn't know the house had mold when they signed the lease. 

> paid off the back rent before the due date. still living alone in black mold at full price. painting feverishly throughout the night & chain smoking a lot. 

> still living alone in black mold, but my landlord randy was coming over every now and again with bleach. they (the landlords are a married couple, I wish randy was nb though) were really surprised and pissed off that I was able to pay off the back rent. They wanted to evict me so they could just sell the house. 

> my annoying ass still at the house alone being a freak. 

> they finally give in and try to take care of the mold with professionals. 

> my mom gets evicted <3 

> organize, pack, and clear out a 3 story hoarder house singlehandedly in 4 days 

> mom guilt trips me into keeping her emotional support glass china cabinet and curio cabinet set. Early 2000s ethan allen, light wood, quite ugly.

> i give in and now have a china cabinet set, lots of other things too. and boxes upon boxes of film and music industry memorabilia that she is urging me to sell on ebay for money for her. 

> realized all of these items are literally all i will have left to remember my mom by materially and i'm 21 and they're all in my mold riddled house right now. 

> mom moves in with my grandpa, uncle, and family friend Raquel's townhouse that they're renting in Johns Creek. 

> they literally aren't letting her eat with them / are all acting weird and generally unwelcoming. 

> i'm like okay, i don't have any roommates now - my mom could move into my house, my landlord is fixing the mold professionally and we'll see what happens. i had a pretty promising executive marketing position lined up that would've let me pay the full rent without an issue. i was not super excited about the job itself but really needed money.

> my mom starts moving into my house without me really giving her the okay / she's sleeping in my bed multiple days a week. 

> still technically unemployed, have had multiple interviews with this company. 

> landlords tell me theyve sold the house and that I have 30 days to move out. I don't think this was legal and I definitely could've taken them to court but at this point i was so exhausted i just didn't even care anymore. 

> jesus take the wheel 

> i sell everything i own as fast as humanly possible, quickly enhance the strained relationship with my father by smoking weed together while he helped me with my garage sale. 

> i move into my dad's house in october (god send) going mentally insane in april was also a god send because i don't think i would've been met with the same amount of sympathy in this situation otherwise, which i'm fine with. 

> the marketing job is strung along a bit more, i'm blaming it on corporate timing which is dismal, but ultimately they decided not to hire me (which is what i kind of wanted) but again, i don't think i would've been met with the same amount of sympathy or hospitality if i didn't at least have some sort of job prospect in the works when i initially moved in. 

> jerry saltz blocks my meme page @saltzcellectuals on instagram. 

> i think i would've killed myself doing marketing for a large corporation that assembles bikes and grills at walmarts and home depots among other big box stores across the nation. what the fuck do they even need to market? they've got huge accounts already. it was a bizarre job option. 

> almost worked at a daycare teaching art but thought that would be frumpy eventually, and not long term. 

> my dad offers me construction work with him. we start constructing a tiki bar in inman park. very cold - lots of bamboo. exclusively listening to Devo radio on spotify. if we did not have our legal CBD vape that makes us high this would've been really terrible but thanks to weed it was actually bonding and i just bit my tongue a lot. ultimately i think our relationship is in such a better place than it was previously. big accomplishment. 

> i start jogging and shaving my legs more regularly, getting stoned and going to hockey games and motorcross races at dixie motor speedway. if there was ever a place to contract covid it would probably be at dixie motor speedway but i love drinking hot fucked up coffee and eating a hot dog at 11pm. 

> at this point i'm fully convinced i'm giving birth to twins either physically within the next few years or spiritually in the sense of 2 creative projects happening simultaneously. i'm thinking the latter might be more realistic at this point in time but sometimes i feel the children in dreams and have been seeing little redheaded twin babies every time i leave the house. so strange. 

> took 4 pills of kratom with my mom on thanksgiving